“I don’t believe it”
That’s the first line of our new song, It Don’t Matter. And really, I don’t believe it. It’s hard to believe that we’re here, and that we’ve done it. I think that a part of me thought that I might never do this again. That I would never again write, record, and release music for people to hear. And I think that for a little while, my mind may have even tricked my heart into thinking that I was okay with that. But I was never
okay with it. I was never going to be okay with leaving that part of me, such a huge part of who I am, behind for good. And my best friend, Tyler, he was never going to let me. Tyler deserves all the credit. None of this happens without him. And without him pushing me to take this long look in the mirror, without him creating the initial musical ideas almost all of the 11 new songs that will be on our album, I’d probably still be lying to myself about not needing to write, record, and release music for people to hear.
That’s why It Don’t Matter is the first song that we’re putting out there for people to hear. It wasn’t the first song that we wrote for this project. It won’t be the first track on the album, and it’s not the beginning of the story that the album tells. But, it was with this song that I first asked myself , “how much does this matter to you?” I basically made myself decide in that moment how important it all was to me, as if I was telling myself, “if you’re not going to put your heart and soul into these songs, then you shouldn’t be doing it.” And that led to me asking myself the same question about different parts of my life. So, I wrote the song about that process, about looking in the mirror and convincing myself that if it mattered, I needed to really do something about. And along with that, I convinced myself that there were a few things I was doing that don’t matter; and I also needed to do something about that. I can only hope that someone who hears it might have those same thoughts, or some sort of positive, motivating thoughts of their own because of it.
Tyler, Red, & Jarrod turned it out! I can’t wait for folks to hear all of the work that we’ve done, and I’m so happy and proud to be making music again with my good friends that I grew up with.